I have had many jobs in my lifetime. I was always searching for the calling that I read others had found. When I was younger, my occupational move from place to place felt embarrassing, yet, I couldn’t talk myself into staying. I refused to settle into a safe, but, unfulfilling job.
So, I have worked in retail, production art and editorial at a famous card company, teaching, a year’s stint with a talent agency, ten years as a wholesale business owner, as a real estate agent, and back to teaching. During that time, I earned two master’s degrees in education. Can I just say that while I had moments of true enjoyment with each of these positions, I missed the sweet spot of knowing that who I was and what I did really fit.
During all of that time, I knew no one who felt the way I did. Most of my friends and relatives went to work each day with no thought of looking elsewhere for that magical fit. My yearnings made me feel different. I wondered why I couldn’t find contentment.
As time passed, though, I began to feel grateful for my experiences. I realized that comparing my thoughts and desires with others only led to disappointment. I learned to treasure the variety that my choices in life have given me, like a gift from a friend.
Now, I continue to venture into new experiences, with my sight on community service. I completed training to be a CASA (court appointed special advocate) volunteer for abused and neglected children, and have just received my first case.
I don’t plan to stop here, though. I have the urge to see more, do more, and give more. I feel that my experiences have carved a path for me to serve in some way. I plan to show up to see what is next.
Sometimes you hear a voice through the door calling you… This turning toward what you deeply love saves you. –Rumi